Drawing a Blank

Drawing a Blank

Drunken-lotus when I wrote this

I’m chokin’ on my brokenness

hopein’ against hopelessness

woke and I was scopin’ this

 

truth in our reality, ponderin’

where should I be, wonderin’

calamity, astonishment

at query of accomplishments

 

this verse is dumbfounded and

this verse is dumbfounded and

I curse this unfounded and

Herculean logician canned

 

Olympian delusions

many eons and no solutions

egocentric push got me listenin’

to Kendrick’s Kush and Corinthians

 

cramming solutions to the feat

in the fetal position, repeated

achievement unsaid and unlocked

dragging myself out of bed when I block

 

all the straggling self-hate that says

 

this poem is a lie to self

this poem says goodbye to health

throw him evil-eye yourself

this poem is a cry for help

 

help, help, help, help

 

I added melodrama here

so you could save what’s left

 

even the Dali Lama fears

nature of life bereft

 

an empty diorama, years

neglected and distressed

** *

Written for imaginary garden with real toads Literary Excursions with Kerry ~ Metafiction.

13 thoughts on “Drawing a Blank

  1. For what it’s worth, I’m glad you popped up in my feed this morning. The poem is tragically sound. A bit somber, but a sting that won’t let up lives in it. Great work, Barry.

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    • Thanks trE. True story; in a recent job interview, I was asked to name my most significant accomplishment during the past year. I was stumped because all I’ve done is replace laptops, help people preserve their data, and try not to get yelled at about things I could never control in the 1st place. This poem kinda materialized within that moment.

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  2. Before I saw the Kendrick Lamar video, I was already rapping your lines in my head. You got a great beat going there with the internal rhymes.

    this poem is a lie to self

    this poem says goodbye to health

    throw him evil-eye yourself

    this poem is a cry for help

    You have summed it up so well.

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    • Thanks man. I agree with you. The fun part about going meta is that you can wink at yourself and kinda pull back from the abyss a bit.

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